six months later..

So I kind of forgot about this.. I can't believe the last post was in July.. and I still feel this badly about myself. Skinny Minnie is still a skinny bitch and even worse, now she's got a semi-boyfriend. Which just makes it even harder for me to listen to her complain about herself because now I'm thinking "you've got the body and the boy" and I've just got nothing. It's not like she eats heathily and goes to the gym 24/7 either.. I think that'd make it easier for me because then atleast she'd work hard for it.. She's one of those girls who barely eats when she remembers to which is not very often.

I sound like a shitty friend, huh? Well I guess I am. I don't think I really have any excuse.. but sometimes I just wonder, why does she always have fat friends? She weighs like, 100 pounds and is 5'4". I weigh about 50 pounds more than she does, and I'm the same height. One of our other close mutual friends is about 180 and is 5'6", and Skinny Minnie's old friend is like 200 and the same height. She's always friends with the fatties..

So, fuck. Boys still hate me, I still hate me, and I hate my job, pretty much my whole life. Nothing has changed what so ever...

And I really need it to..