Thursday, July 9, 2009

This is me.. lately, anyway.

Do you ever feel like you're just not good enough? That's what I feel like. Always, everyday. It's been like this for a while.

Not good enough, not pretty enough, not thin enough, not smart enough, not caring enough, not witty enough, not clever enough.

When I'm with my friends it gets a bit better.. I can forget about things for a little bit, unless one of them starts complaining about themselves. Especially the skinny one. We'll call her Skinny Minnie. She complains all the time and pulls at her non-existant stomach fat and Im just thinking 'helloo?! what's wrong with you?' That just makes me wonder whats wrong with my body even more.

Anyway, it's not like a boy has broken my heart - boys aren't interested in me, period, and you get pretty used to that - it's like I've fallen into a funk I can't get myself out of.

It's not like I'm just sad either.. you get over being sad within a few hours or days. I've been feeling like this for the majority of the past three years.

And I feel like I'm the only one.

~Wings.